(via mindofaflyguy)
There are always going to be those moments when you want to doubt your letters. Girls complain, bitch, and moan…but that’s what we do. It’s how we express what’s going on and there is nothing wrong with that. I know that I haven’t been in the best of spirits with my chapter, but I am definitely going to look forward to changing that. It starts internally. Maybe somewhere along the lines they will listen and realize there is an alternative way of doing things. One dimensional thinking does not create success in this world or in anything we do in our lives.
I do love my sisters…so so much. Most of them don’t even realize that they affect how I think and how I feel. For the better. Sometimes I think it’s because I don’t tell them. My panda mommy when I rushed went alum yesterday. That was really emotional…I have always strived to be like Jen. She’s an amazing person inside and out. Hopefully I can rid of those resentful qualites I have…well not really resentful. I’d like to think of them as dismissive. I know I am like that- a lot. Most of the time for good reason.
My roommate got annoyed with me this morning because I keep taking the air conditioning dial out of it’s operator. I told her at the beginning of the year that my room is the hottest. She said “well what about me? I’m freezing.” I told her that it is more conveniant for her to wear a sweater than for me to be naked. I mean what the heck…my sheets have been getting drenched for the past month, it makes me sick, and I am sick of it. She said it was immature to take the dial out-but I told her it was also immature to deliberately change the temperature as soon as I close my door. Two wrongs NEVER make a right and I did what I felt was best because she’s a pretty dismissive person as well…so she apologized and so did I. Moving on…
Love life is great- but it’s getting hard from time to time because our schedules conflict a lot now. I’m training for a track meet and he’s studying for the police academy’s weekly tests. I’ll have to adapt of course…probably need to grow up a little bit in that department. I’m not a fan of course change…when it’s unexpected. Rolling with the punches is not my style. But when you are with someone-you always have to remain on the offense and objective. I love this man- he’s so understanding and patient. That’s how I know I made the right decision. A guy who is willing to be patient= a man that is WORTH your time. Girls should definitely make that emotional investment. Probably wouldn’t walk away broken. I know I won’t again….
Welp! That’s my little rant for the day. Be blessed!
